Are you there? Of course, I know you’re not there. But are you? Maybe you’ll read this? I know you won’t but I can pretend you will.
I never considered myself a “fanboy” of yours. I really didn’t. You were like a fixture in my universe, but a far off star who’s path I would never cross. But I really never considered myself anything resembling a fan. I knew I was drawn to your quirkiness, your unusual and decisive character, your perfectionism. But I never considered myself a fan.
And that’s why I find myself confused at how I am so deeply affected by your passing. Steve, the only other person in the public sphere who’s passing has affected me this deeply was Paul Wellstone. I won’t forget that day. I was driving to work and they announced over the radio how Wellstone’s plane had crashed. I burst into tears like a little baby. And I’m often times ready to do the same over you and I don’t really know why.
I think it has to do with the fact that you’re a liberal, a visionary, a perfectionist, a geek, and a dreamer, all things I can identify with and feel drawn towards. I hope you aren’t offended when I speak in the present tense. I’m also intrigued by your interest in eastern religions like Buddhism. I consider myself a Buddhist. Maybe you thought the same of yourself? Did you consider yourself a Buddhist? What are your thoughts on the afterlife?
Lastly, I think what I most admire about you, being so far away from you and having a little glimpse into your life and world, is that you expected people to be their best. You expected the best from everyone. That’s such an admirable trait for a human being to have. I think if everyone or more people in life expected the best of themselves and others, and if we all pulled together and realized it’s one combined human effort in this world, this life, then the world would be a better place.
I hope I haven’t in anyway misrepresented you as a person but these are the impressions I have of you and your life. I hope as you go on to your next life, you keep your ideals and continue to work toward perfect and complete Buddhahood for the sake of all sentient beings.
Thank you for everything you’ve done to make the world a better place.
Sincerely and with much love,